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May life whisper joy through your veins before lidding your eyes.

photons              like phantoms                                    cross our paths unseen                       except              for their effects                              every poem begins with sometimes every dream begins with maybe

tomorrow morning i will be two again and scared of the shadows. i will be two again and i will not look out the window unless you are holding my hand, i will be two again and my father will be the biggest man on earth again but tonight i am eighteen, i am eighteen, i am holding the world in my chest and it is beating like a heart (well then it must be my heart) china digs a pattern in my backbone and i am red red red red i am a communist daughter and the trains to shanghai will leave something to be desired i am eighteen, i am all the life in the world stacked around a schoolruined spine and the world moves softly and she touches me gent

there’s this picture of some rooftops in new york and over the rooftops there’s this rainbow like a question mark lying on its side like it’s not even sure that it should be a rainbow, it’s like when you exhale by accident really softly on birthday candles and the flames ripple a little and everyone thinks you made your wish even though it was just a mistake, it’s a rainbow like that, like it happened by mistake and the picture reminds me of this one day when i was looking out the window of ms. azeglio’s office when i was fifteen as she talked on and on without saying anything, talked about fixing me i wat

I watch you cutting strawberries in the amber afternoon, sun on its midway to autumn; you won't let me help because secretly only half of them make it to the bowl. I smile back at your playful eyes because you know.   It feels like an old August, in my stomach some sort of sadness some sort of joy. Last night's thunderstorm has left the ocean agitated, wildly beautiful. Life is nothing but a vacant place, today and we shall let it be, let the world wait for us, today. Cross legged on my piano bench, I play for the cat a winter Debussy she's happy, I could tell she smiles.

1. if someone invites you back to their place for coffee, and you only drink tea, don’t stress: you probably won’t actually be drinking coffee. 2. when the creepy guy from work asks you out again and you think about accepting for the first time because you’re sick of going home alone and you have never learned how to say no, don’t. learn. stand in front of the mirror until you love yourself enough for your skin to fit snug on your body. read about the hundreds of millions of planets out in the hundreds of millions of galaxies and feel so crowded that you’re about to burst all over again. 3. you’re gonna

It was just a little kiddie pool in the backyard, unlovely pink-and-yellow plastic under the hot summer sun. But on those nights when Mom came home from the swing shift tired and met Daddy sitting in the kitchen angry, it was Amy’s only sanctuary. She wasn’t a sound sleeper. Her parents still talked about how it had taken her infant self six months to sleep more than two or three hours at a time. During the school year, when her life was full of classes and friends and sports, it was easier to drop off, but summer nights were always more difficult. They were hotter, for one thing, and the long, indolent, inactive days often left

mercury. I will break you stars, and sever your arrangements. venus. I will black you and constrain you, your sway will never taste my disdain again; I will hang you out to shine in someone else's vision; my ambitions are not orbital, my ambitions are not orbital. earth. I will hate you stars, and blot out your engagements. mars. I will stop your waltz, your victories, and sanctify Verona; you intended such atrocities, attempted to control us but ambition is not orbital, ambition is not orbital. jupiter. I have watched you stars, and noted your connections. saturn. I have reasons to despise you, as you tw

[STARTUP INITIALIZED] Disc detected. Boot from disc (y/n)? y [LOADING] [INITIALIZING] Ready. Command: run AI.exe AI Sim v1.2 Initializing AI... Hello. How can I help you today? Command: find heart.exe Certainly. Searching... ... ... File found. Would you like to run this file (y/n)? y CAUTION File certificate unverified. Run anyway (y/n)? y Loading heart.exe... Initializing heart.exe... ALERT heart.exe has accessed AI.config heart.exe has accessed speech_synth.exe I p-presume this rhythm is a heart beat. Too poly-ph-ph-phonic for a programmatic speech. But it seems s-s-security has been b-b-b-breached. It seems sec